It's Sunday already?!

All week I have been thinking A LOT...Almost too much for my own head and its been driving me a bit nuts.

I continuously think where the heck are all my friends, then I make plans and half of me just wants to sit in bed and watch TV. I know that its not them, its me. Well in most cases anyway.

I haven't seen any of my besties in a long while. Sure we text a how was your day here and there but its just not the same - sure we facebook but really who the heck facebooks their best friends...kinda sad really. Not having any social contact with people your age makes you drained. I spend my day with children and with their parents and somedays, well most days it makes me bonkers. There are quick moments that make me laugh, and the smiles from Kadence and Kylie in the am help me get through my day. Or at a birthday party, watching the children laugh and play on the water slides- alone in their own little worlds just trying to figure things out and having a blast doing it. These moments make me smile.

And then, I receive a chance to see some of my besties. It only takes a moment to snap me out of my funk when I am with them. Hanging out at their work on a low key Saturday or a late night phone call, these mean the world to me!! Its so great when you talk to an oldie but a goodie. Its like time has never lapsed and even though you haven't
spoken in a month really, you get the gist of their life in these text messages, so when you do see each other, you can still get all the juicy "gossip" of their world, or have some really meaningful conversations OR just a hug. That little bit of love centers me for a sec. sometimes its just a sec but its there and then I feel sane again.

I lead a complicated life. Full of stress and pain and yuckiness but in those moments when it rains glitter those are good moments.

Im nostalgic for some aspects of the past-- but we can never go back and really we shouldn't. I am hopeful for the future and what it will bring. Hopefullhy something in there that lets me calm down. All we need from our friends is a little support and love and if you give you should get it. I miss a few of my besties...the ones out of my life but they are doing their own things and I guess I gotta deal.