GLEE!

Ever wonder to yourself...."How in the heck did I get here?"

I do ALL the time, especially during AM times when people are continuously late- ITS RUDE!! My time is important....I am 99% never late, in fact I am almost chronically early- don't do it to me- its so rude and a disregard of another persons time and importance...Side note: If you would like to stay on my good side, be on time, be polite, follow through, text or respond back to an email...even if it a NO thank you, and don't ever start taking me for granite (end of side note). And as these late arrivals have me walking back and forth and back in forth, their snippy little comments of "We are part of Ms. Laurens work out plan" really make me feel great and happy...its not funny and FYI- I have been up since 4:30 and at the gym already this morning and got to work 20 minutes early to set up and people are feeling on time at 9:30 in the morning...MUST be nice With that being said, I sit and wonder, how did I get here? How did I diverge so far from my dreams of being a Talk Show Host, A ballerina, And a world traveling (HOT) mom with my kids...Kinda like Angelina but I wouldn't lack and morality issues or ethics to be SO self serving - like she appears to be. The past few days in the office, I have been listening to Pandora...Disney show tunes and Sound of Music songs, mostly because anything else would be inappropriate- which I am constantly reminded of being- un lady like and inappropriate. But personally I really love Disney songs, Sound of Music etc....I can sing to almost all of them, Pocahontas, Sleeping Beauty, Tarzan, Beauty and the Beast and MOST definitely The Little Mermaid. :) I love to sing- and I am pretty good at it too, if I do say so myself. I spent many years in choir, and church choir, and school choir, I just loved music and singing. I loved the expression. I still do. People tell me, you should go on American Idol (barf), why don't you sing more?, sing to me.....Well I would but then you would fall in love with me...haha- gross...but PS I swear I can sing like Beyonce and Christina, and totally have the attitude to be like one of them....Christina's voice with Beyonces style with Christina's shock factor and Beyonces glamor...If you didn't know it, that is me... So then I watch "Glee" and it makes me totally fall in love with performance all over again....and I never really understood that choir kids were considered geeks.....I love this show so much...it makes me want to follow my dreams...the real ones I had as a child- to be a singer. So while I am at the gym, doing my arm crunch things- listening to Carrie Underwood- singing along in my head, I really just want to break out and sing out loud using the weight as my microphone - " hes a blue eyed cowboy Casanova, hes a heart breaking sooommething" I don't know all the words YET but I don't and mainly because I am in public and that's sort of embarrassing... I wouldnt mind doing it if I had Gigi or Ashley were there with me...I am not really a subtle person unless I am by myself and then I like to be quietly bold, the type of girl who says everything even when saying nothing :) Anyway, so I sit here an wonder how did I get here...not Here here- but here, in the corporate world, in the business mind, in the 9- 5 but more like 7:30-5, work my fingers to the bone, married to work, very proper vs. improper, very appropriate vs. inappropriate, reliable, black and white, suit, heels, kinda world...a bland boring black and white world. I love love love my job and my purpose but sometimes I just need to stretch my wings and get some color. Some bold color...
Some days I want get out and go to the beach and just jump in the waves, put some random color in my hair, wear blue eyeliner, or my zebra heels or wear them together. Even though I can do "Proper, snooty, exclusive" REALLY really WELL, it gets boring and maybe just maybe I SHOULD just sing some karaoke - Christina, Beyonce style....