My second week in Southern California has come to an end and I have 5 weeks to go. I hate to say it but it was a little warm today. I really do not want to get acclimated so when I come back to AZ that its to darn hot!!
It is true when you don't have your family and close friends you are forced to venture out. Something that I have been doing almost every day. I have concurred a few fears and gotten some new ones and have made a new list of goals for myself.
The first one is to run up the hill - my nemesis. I will do it one day but I have to master walking up first. The second is to break my plateau and drop another 15 lbs....possible in 5 weeks? I don't know.
Third is to take up a new hobby and write more and to finish up most of my book that I will write. To learn all I can in school and get my masters when I get home to AZ.
We watched a film today- The miracle of Birth....After watching a baby crown out of a ladies goodie bits, and then seeing a doctor man handle a placenta I decided that even though I see myself with a family and want to get married and have babies, that I think I can wait a few years.
I have also really really learned the importance of parents. I have met another girl who lost her mother 3 years ago. She was young too and we bonded a little bit over it- I wonder if she has the same thoughts in her head that I have in mine. I sit in class and realize my mom gave me everything she had. I will always have the guilt of not mending back and becoming friends but literally time ran out.
People keep telling me- wait for your transformation just wait absorb....Well in many ways, I feel like I already have absorbed. I can always learn more but I think I have dealt with a ton of stuff most people my age hasn't or maybe they have but just in a different way.
So I am so pleased to be able to enjoy the weather and the beautiful campus here. I am glad that everyone is very nice and every single man smiles at me...holla hehe- I dont think I will ever get used to the the fact that it takes 10 minutes to travel 2 miles! Or that the freeways are dark and scary but I really enjoy learning and am excited to be back in school!!
It is true when you don't have your family and close friends you are forced to venture out. Something that I have been doing almost every day. I have concurred a few fears and gotten some new ones and have made a new list of goals for myself.
The first one is to run up the hill - my nemesis. I will do it one day but I have to master walking up first. The second is to break my plateau and drop another 15 lbs....possible in 5 weeks? I don't know.
Third is to take up a new hobby and write more and to finish up most of my book that I will write. To learn all I can in school and get my masters when I get home to AZ.
We watched a film today- The miracle of Birth....After watching a baby crown out of a ladies goodie bits, and then seeing a doctor man handle a placenta I decided that even though I see myself with a family and want to get married and have babies, that I think I can wait a few years.
I have also really really learned the importance of parents. I have met another girl who lost her mother 3 years ago. She was young too and we bonded a little bit over it- I wonder if she has the same thoughts in her head that I have in mine. I sit in class and realize my mom gave me everything she had. I will always have the guilt of not mending back and becoming friends but literally time ran out.
People keep telling me- wait for your transformation just wait absorb....Well in many ways, I feel like I already have absorbed. I can always learn more but I think I have dealt with a ton of stuff most people my age hasn't or maybe they have but just in a different way.
So I am so pleased to be able to enjoy the weather and the beautiful campus here. I am glad that everyone is very nice and every single man smiles at me...holla hehe- I dont think I will ever get used to the the fact that it takes 10 minutes to travel 2 miles! Or that the freeways are dark and scary but I really enjoy learning and am excited to be back in school!!
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