Things I wont feel bad about!!

So after another eventful day....i have come to some more conclusions! wow....here are a few things I will never feel bad for! 1. that I am blessed and have a good family. We may be big, loud and all over the place but my family always has my back and that will never change. 2. That I have nice things. I work very very hard for my things. I got my degree and pay my way. I see something I want and I get it. I wont feel bad about being successful. Everyone can have it- you just gotta apply yourself. 3. That my family helps me. My family is the best. They worked very hard for what they have and they want to share it. Not only material but lessons to. My parents, grandparents, aunts and uncles have instilled many important traits and I am proud to be where I am. 4. That I am a lady. I like that I will walk away from drama that I dont need. Dont get me wrong you want to call me a Bitch and those are fighting words but I will walk away from crap that I dont need. 5. I wont feel bad that I wake up early and fall asleep at a reasonable hour. I wake up at 5 and go to the gym....people think this is crazy..but guess what people I have lost almost 100 lbs and I am freaking PROUD! Have a met my goal? not yet but I am well on my way 6. That I will succeed even when people doubt me. Its OKAY be jealous......but PLEASE dont think because I have it good now that my life has not been full of pain......I should not have to struggle just because other do. FYI two weeks after my moms funeral I was back in classes and had a 3.9 GPA in 7 classes....please try and tell me that this is not "hard" to have to fight with the grief, shock, and tragedy and on top of this plan a funeral and realize I lost my mom....and then on top of that fight with teachers who will not let me take finals, and fight with ASU to get my moms degree for her AND fight with the medical board for mal practice...F- U....my life has not been easy, it has not been a walk in the park and I have stuggled. 7. I will not be ashamed or feel shamed that I went to private school. Again my parents and grandparents worked hard to send me to private school. I received a great education, manners, faith, and much more... 8 8. I am a professional. There is something to be said about this. No I dont wear torn clothes to work, or think its okay to cuss in the office or befriend my clients.....its not professional- its OKAY. 9.That I am not a hypocrite. 10, That I will not settle for a man, who yells, beats, puts me down or doesnt love and care for me the way I am.....I dont accept that from my friends, family or strangers SO why would I do this for my husband. 10. .....I am still thinking The only thing I wish is that people would not judge me. Mind your business!

why struggle if you dont have to. Why because in other peoples minds I have not had as hard as them do I have to be brought down?! I dont get it. And please dont forget when you hurt me....because of whatever reason and you are/were my moms friend you are hurting her.....She may be in Heaven but she watches over me and she sees what is happening and only she and God will get to judge you when you die. So sit on that for a second. Dont treat me like shit because I am how I am. My mom made me this way- she taught me- and I am who I am because of her....in her life and her death. I am not perfect, I am not devoid of feelings. I have a wall for a reason and I shelter my pain to survive. I stress because I want things to be perfect for her. And they wont be but this is my path to follow. I will walk it and you probably cant fit in my shoes so suck it. I am 26 I dont need to be shamed. I need to be supported and if you truly can not do this from the bottom of your heart then dont worry about what I get or dont get, or what I do or dont do. BUT for sure never doubt me because I will surpass and succeed and I will always be one step ahead. I have faced one of the worst things I will ever face in my life and I wish to God that others dont have to feel this pain but I know you will.....everyones mom dies. I just hope you dont have to feel it the way I did. I hope you dont have to make the choices I did. I hope you dont have to face your fears when your only weapon are your tears. I just pray to God, that you can step back and remember who you were and where I am going. I am hurt today....but I sure as hell wont be made to feel bad about where I am going and what I am doing. Worry about yourself and mind your business. God gave me my life for a reason, and its not yours to worry about- maybe you should look into your soul and judge yourself and leave mine out of your head. It probably wont bug you as much.